he is my hero...

bismillahirrohmanirrohim....

Alhamdulillah,sy masih dizinkan untuk mencoret sesuatu yang pada sy amat bermakna dan menggelikan hati sy..hehehe

9/4/2010..

sy bertekad untuk pulang ke johor walaupun time tu study week...[tekad yang tak bagus]..sy tahu kalau sy kat rumah,sy takkan study punye..tapi sy bawak balik buku jugak..sebab yang penting niat tu ade..insya`Allah berkat..hehe..tepat 12 tengahari, sy naik bas..sangat lega..sebelum tu sy rs macam nak pengsan..dengan beg yg berat, sy ke hulu ke hilir..dr kolej ke bank-dr bank ke flat ikan-dr flat ikan ke pusat asasi-dr pusat asasi sy berlari-lari anak dengan ain n anum ke KMR..nak kejar bas gi pudu punye pasal..apepon kami sanggup redah..huhu..kemudian time dalam bas on the way ke johor, berlaku sedikit babak sedih antara sy dan family sy...sgt3 sedih..sampai sy rase tak nak balik rumah..ikutkan hati, sy nak patah balik ke upm..tp sy tak nak terlalu bertindak mengikut perasaan..sy sangat kecil hati dengan abah sy...malam tu alhamdulillah sy selamat sampai di rumah..syukur sangat kat Allah sebab Allah bagi saya selamat sampai rumah walaupun sy dh berdosa pada ayah sy[kes kecil hati tadi]..kalau la sy maut time dalam perjalanan,tak ke naya..tak sempat nak mintak maaf..ades2..sampai rumah je,mak sy sambut sy..mak sy tanya,"kakak balik naik ape?"..sy jawab,"rahsia.." sy terus masuk bilik dan tidur sebab terlalu letih.Letih fizikal dan emosi.

10/4/2010..

sy bersarapan bersama mak sy..mak sy cakap,"kakak tau x,abah kecik hati dengan kakak tau semalam.Abah call tapi tak nak angkat.Abah siap keluar pergi beli topup sebab nak call kakak..Ingat..abah kecik hati ngan kakak,abah x dapat dosa..tapi kalau kakak kecik hati ngan abah,kakak dapat dosa" Rasa macam nak tersembur air milo yang sy tgh minum tu..tp sy x jawab balik pun..sy diam dan berfikir..Ya Allah..apa yg sy dah buat..layak ke sy nak kecil hati kalau nak dibandingkan dengan pengorbanan2 ayah sy yg menggunung tu..nak menitis air mata..tapi cepat2 sy pegi tandas..layan perasaan+muhasabah diri dalam tandas..kalau nak nanges pun takde orang nampak..takdela sy malu nanti..hehe..semua perbuatan jahat kat dunia ni Allah akan tangguhkan pembalasannya kecuali buat jahat pada kedua ibu bapa..Allah akan balas time tu jugak..ya...sangat benar..tiba2 plak charger laptop sy x berfungsi..dah la skrin ade masalah..nk baiki skrin,kosnya RM 1000++..warranty plak x jumpe..ades3..sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga..sy sangat terharu sebab walaupun ayah sy kecil hati ngan sy,beliau tetap bertungkus lumus tolong sy cari warranty tu..seolah-olah takde ape2 yg berlaku..sy rasa sebak sangat..tp sy simpan dalam hati je..malu la sy klau abah sy nampak sy nangis..hehe..sy ni suke ego tak bertempat..tak bagus..isk3..unfortunately x jumpe jugak warranty tu..ayah sy ckp,beli baru jela...errkkkk...tidak3...sy taknak menambahkan rase bersalah sy lagi...sy akan berusaha keras untuk cari solusinye..takpe abah,trima kasih byk2 atas tawaran tu..biar abah simpan duit abah tu untuk perkara yg lebih penting ye..sy berjanji dalam diri sy,sy tak nak hampakan abah sy lagi..sy taknak kecilkan hati abah sy lagi..sy sangat2 sayangkan abah sy...walaupun abah sy jenis tak banyak cakap,tp abah sy 'deliver' kasih sayang tu melalui perbuatan..sy sangat2 rasakannya..
mak jangan kecil hati ye...nanti lain kali kte post untuk mak ea..[tp tunggu sy kecil hati ngan mak pulak]..hehehe..sy rase malu+geli hati+nak tergelak bila teringat kisah sy yang satu ni..adik sy,ekal..die ckp kat sy, "kak,ko ni x segan pulak ek..dah besar2 pun nak merajuk..sekarang kan dah malu sendiri..padan muka..ngade2 sangat"..eeeeee..sabar3...mahu saje sy stapler mulut dia yg muncung tu..huhu..[sori ekal..termengata ko plak] :)


ni la abah sy yang sweet tu..banyak berjasa tau jejaka ni..abah,you are my hero :)



p/s : kepada yg dh berumur 17 tahun dan ke atas,sgt x sesuai kalau anda nk merajuk..
nanti mesti anda akan malu sendiri..macam sy ni..so sama2 la kte buat2 rlex
walaupun dalam hati tu sedih tahap gaban..wallahua`lam..

..remEmber Allah..

QUESTIONS....

What time did you wake up this morning?

Did you wake up in Allah’s terms or in your own terms?

Did you start your day with the morning prayer on time and in the way shown by the Prophet (s.a.w.)?

Do you know what you are supposed to do?

When you got up this morning, Allah observed you, and it was expected of you to talk to Him.
Even if they were only a few words, thanking Him for another day or just giving thanks for something that happened to you yesterday.
But you were very busy looking for the appropriate clothes to wear and to go to work.

However,
while you were doing things in a hurry,there were still some minutes for you to stop for a moment and remember Allah!”,
But you were too busy.



Even after this ungratefulness, Allah lit the sky for you.
He filled it with colors and beautiful songs of birds,
to see if you would still remember Him.

But you did not notice this.

While going to work,
and during the whole day you never bothered to say thanks to Him.

With all your activities, I suppose you were too busy to remember Him.

While you were coming back, you were tired and Allah wanted to shower upon you some water to take away your stress.
He wanted to do you a favor so that you would think of Him.
But you got angry and offended by the rain.

wished that you would talk to Him… there was still enough time.

Later on you turned on the television,
and yes, you did have time for TV but not for Allah!

While you were watching the TV and having your supper,
you never bothered to remember why and how you are here…

Did you notice that you were tired and silent, so Allah darkened the clarity of the sky for your comfort?

But He really did not leave you in darkness, He just changed it with a more comforting light for you.

It was really beautiful, but you were not interested in seeing it or showing any appreciation for it.

At the time of sleeping, you were already exhausted.
After saying good night to your family,
you lay on your bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
Allah made you sleep with a cool breeze and the sound of the night animals. If He wanted, He could punish you by not letting you sleep.


You still did not realize this and show your appreciation to Him although He is always there for you.

Allah has more patience than you can imagine.

He would also like to teach you how to be patient with others.

HE LOVES YOU so much that He is doing all these to you everyday even with all your ungratefulness to Him.

The landscape that He made is only for you, He does not need it …

Well, you are getting up again …
And just out of His love for you,

He might give you another nice day !!!!

Or, will He?



Do you ever expect to wear the above attire?

But where are your expensive clothings, the jewelry, the luxurious house, the car and everything else for which you worked so hard?

Do you still need to know what you are supposed to do?
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sy sygkan Dr.Asmah Yahaya...my chemistry lecturer..she always reminds us about al-Khaliq..

sebenarnya pagi tadi sy terlewat bangun..tapi alhamdulillah sempat sampai ke kelas on time :)
ni lah mukadimah untuk 'reation kinetics'..topik kimia untuk sy belajar hari ini..best kan??walaupun sedikit tertampar..huhu..almaklumlah dah terbangun lewat..skali pulak keluar mukadimah macam ni..tak tau nak sorok muka kat mana...sy malu sangat dengan Allah..hamba jenis apalah sy ni..ades2..semoga esok dan hari-hari seterusnya sy tak bangun lewat lagi..siapa2 yang baca post sy ni dan yang sudi nk hulurkan bantuan,sila-sila lah misscall sy kalau rasa2 dah subuh tu..hehe :)

buat pertama kalinya...

Pertama dan utamanya, sy sgt2 brsyukur kpda Allah..satu-satunya Rabb sy..kerana telah membuka pintu hati ini untuk meng'create' blog :)

credit to k.maryam fatin hanisah....lepas baca blog akak,hati sy betul-betul terpanggil untuk berkongsi kisah-kisah kehidupan sy dan kehidupan orang lain selagi mana kisah itu bermanfaat untuk kita semua...insya`Allah..

tersenyum2 sy time nak taip..teringat kat teman2 sy yang dahulunya [lepas habis spm] sangat2 berharap supaya sy buat blog..mira,sarasab,janas dan lain2 lagi[ maaf tak dapat nak ingat semua supporter :) ], hari ni sy dah tunaikan harapan kalian..jangan tak jenguk plak ye..hehe